Nine Weeks Yesterday
So my family & closest friends already know by now, but we have scheduled my total hysterectomy... it is in 9 weeks, as of yesterday. May 21st. Emotions are high and mixed. I think what made it harder was that I was confronted with speaking to Z's birthmom on the phone the other evening. Hearing her voice reminds me that he is not from my own womb (I often forget that, actually!). And it makes the reality that my womb will never grow a life that much more difficult. I am sad and there is a sense of loss. But strangely, I am a little excited as well... I will finally have this "mess" behind me. And it IS a mess. Literally. My specialist/surgeon at UNC has to have a colorectal surgeon to assist with takedown of the severe adhesions to ensure my sigmoid colon is not perforated, given that the left side of my uterus is attached to that part of the large intestine. I am hoping that removing the 9cm mass on the left ovary a...