A Fork in the Road

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Well, here we are. Standing at the fork in the road that we knew was inevitably coming one day.

3 wks ago, we visited Dr. Walmer after having those persistent cysts drained (again! for the 2nd time). After the ultrasound, he sat us down and told us it was the end of the road - that I needed to have a hysterectomy. .... What do I say after that?

We cried, we prayed, we cried some more. And we made the appointment with the gynecologic oncologist who would be performing the hysterectomy. It is on Dec. 1, 2009 (the appt, not the surgery!!). Many of you might wonder, why in the world doesn't she just leave it all intact and maybe she will get pregnant in a few years after they adopt, etc., etc? The hysterectomy is the last chance Dr. Walmer thinks I have at pain relief.

However, I will tell you this - my pain is not only from my uterus issues - it's also coming from these cysts!! I've been having persistent back pain for about 5 wks now, that we thought was a kidney stone. One xray and one CT scan later - no kidney stone. But this persistent little (well, not so little) cyst on my right ovary is still there, and perhaps it's pulling on something in my back???

Anyway, this idea of a hysterectomy was finally sinking in... I had come to start accepting it and even started looking forward to the pain relief. But there was never a 100% peace about it. Maybe it's because I'm not ready to accept reality. Maybe it's because my brother & his wife just announced they are expecting (which I am totally over-the-moon about, by the way!!!! super excited, no psychological breakdown or issues haha). Or maybe it's because it's not the Lord's will for me to have this permanent procedure yet. .... I'm really not sure!

So to make things more complicated for my confused little heart and mind, we have made an appt with a doctor at Chapel Hill for a second opinion. That appointment is next week, the 25th of Nov.

Keep us in your prayers...
~ For direction
~ For wisdom from the doctors
~ For pain relief for Tara - it's unrelenting and daily - and all-the-while she has been trying to go to school, clinical, and work with it!
~ For stress relief for Justin - his blood pressure has been high; this stress may be taking a toll on his body too.

We love you guys for your support, prayers, & kind words.

Comments

  1. SherryNovember 17, 2009 at 10:10 PM

    You are definitely a child of God! There is just no other way you could get through all this! Remember, no matter how it happens, you will be an awesome mommy...and it WILL be a miracle! God bless you, girl!

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  2. UnknownNovember 19, 2009 at 4:14 PM

    I'm sorry to hear of the ongoing struggle you've been having; we know from experience how complicated and scary medical stuff can be. May your path be paved with peace.

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