Homesick but Hopeful

So today has been a toughie.  I, in particular, am very homesick.  But I'm getting ahead of myself.  Let me back up and update you on the adoption front.

We heard from T. yesterday out of the blue, which has been unusual for her (well since we've arrived in OKC anyway) to contact us first.  But it was going on day 3 without any communication from her, and we were getting antsy, considering we called her on day 2 and got a message that her phone was disconnected.   We called the attorney (which he knew nothing), and then called V. who said that she was getting the # changed due to a disagreement w/ the birthfather.  Turns out she said her phone was lost, and she found it ... whatever the reason, we are glad she decided to contact us to let us know she was okay.  No progression though :(  But, she did seem more like herself (the T. we know better) than the last week and a half, and we texted back and forth for about 30 minutes.  So it made me feel more at ease.  We may be giving her a ride to her appointment on Tuesday, but either way, we are hoping to talk to the doctor! :)

So we feel good about the adoption.  But I am missing North Carolina terribly right about now.  I was going to type how OKC is soooo much different than NC ... but instead of complaining, I will just say how much I am missing my own comfortable home with everything in its place and in their own messy but organized piles :)  I am missing my doggie, Abby, even if she does throw up every other day and gets poo on her fur because she's a Westie & I'd rather her have a Westie haircut & be cute than have a shaved butt!  HAHA!!! :)  (Don't worry I wipe her poo-ey butt so it doesn't stay that way!).  I miss my daily cuddle sessions with Abby.  I miss my perfectly comfy bed, with my soft sheets, and without springs sticking into my ribs.  I miss having more than 800 square feet so I can spread out and have some privacy.  I miss being able to cook if I wanted to, my once-a-week meal.  I miss my Granny's Sunday lunches and being able to just stop in anytime and say hello to her!  I miss my church!!!!  I miss being able to worship beside hundreds of my church family and raise my hands, and singing on the Praise Team, and with my awesome choir buddies.  I miss getting a good word from Pastor Ferrell, without having to watch online (even though I am thankful for the ability to do that, it's just not the same as being there... it's always pausing and screwing up!).  I miss holding my little niece until she falls asleep in my arms.  I miss the joy of laughing with my favorite girlfriends, Melissa & Lauren & Emily... just to name a few of my favs! ;)

But enough wallowing in self pity.  A friend of mine posted this on her facebook just before I started blogging tonight and it fit so perfectly:  "Sometimes it takes the clouds in your life to appreciate the stars in your life."


So we wait on the Lord to renew our strength.  And we wake up each day, and the first thing that I pray is, "Lord, please let that baby come today!!!"  I have to admit, it's getting better, this waiting thing.  I have a peace that I know only comes from the Lord.  I'm reading and almost through with a book called The Shack.  It was like the Lord himself put that book in my cart in Wal-Mart!!  It was just what I needed.  I highly recommend it to everyone, even if you're not very "spiritual" or "religious" because it tackles really tough questions like - Why would a loving God allow pain and suffering?


I miss being able to manage my Thirty-One business.  I've been switching my home parties into catalog parties, which kind of takes the fun out of it, but it's the best I can do for now.  Thanks to all my hostesses for being so kind and patient!!  :)  Oh, and while we're talking about Thirty-One, you can go place an order with any party I've got open right now at www.mythirtyone.com/taramclamb.  Just click on Place an Order and follow the steps!  Our new Holiday Gift Guide is AWESOME!  Ok, enough of the 31 plug :)


Today Justin & I went to Frontier City, which is a local amusement park similar to a scaled-down King's Dominion - let's just say it was .... interesting.  We rode 3 roller coasters (which is all of them), ate a greasy meal and came back to the hotel.  But hey, at least we are keeping our minds off of things.  This week we plan on going to the zoo.  Unless the baby decides to make his grand entrance that is!! :)


Love you so much!