Waiting... Day 2 out of ????
Today we were actually supposed to meet up with our birthmom & the birthfather's mother (the birthfather has nothing to do w/ this child). The birthfather's mom is not supportive of the adoption at this moment. And T. wanted us to meet her, to "show her that we are good people" and basically make her feel more at peace with this adoption. Don't worry, legally, the grandmother cannot interfere with our adoption. However, she can interfere w/ T.'s emotions and possibly manipulate the situation out of our favor. That's the bad news. The good news is that we serve a BIG GOD who gave us this promise, and we know that He has not brought us this far to leave us empty-handed and heartbroken.
So, we were supposed to meet up with them for lunch or possibly dinner. We had not heard from her by 1:15pm, so we texted her, knowing that she is a night owl and likes to sleep in very late. We still have not heard from her. Honestly, it is making us frustrated, worried, concerned, and unsure. But we know in our hearts that the Lord is in control of this entire situation, and that worry on our part only shows that we need to have more faith in Him. That is very hard right now. Not hearing from her is so hard, because we want to call her and text her and talk to her .... but we don't want to be pushy or anything. So here we sit.
Well, I say we sit. I'm sitting now to write this blog post, but truthfully we've tried to keep busy today. We all went to Walmart (again!) and stocked up on more groceries :) (we are hungry people). We also had a small family meeting to determine how we can cut costs since we are going to be here longer than we initially anticipated. We decided to trade in the massive Suburban we had rented (thought we needed all that room for luggage, grandmommies, us, & Zane) for a smaller compact SUV (got a Jeep compass, tiny little thing!!), and will save about $500 a week on that. We also all moved in together into one (2-bedroom/3 bed) hotel room. That's going to be interesting :) We love our moms, but the hubby & I like our space and privacy. But decided this would be best in the grand scheme of things. We also drove down to the attorney's office and picked up the DVD that he was supposed to mail us a couple months ago. The DVD is of the baby's 3D ultrasound from July. We popped it into our laptop & watched him move and smile at us for about 30 minutes!! It was breathtaking, and while I'm glad we got to see his face again, and his little heartbeat, it also made the waiting that much harder!!!
We also drove down to Babies-R-Us and picked up a couple more things off the registry that we might need once we bring him back to the hotel, and once we fly back, like a Moby wrap - can't wait to try that thing out!!!! Lastly, we drove to the hospital just to be sure we knew where to go - it seems to be about a 15 minute drive from our hotel. We just ate dinner, and are going to see what the evening holds.
The waiting without hearing anything is killing us. We are trying to stay strong, and keeping our faith up for the most part, but each day that passes resounds with dollar signs. I told Justin that God will provide for those needs. But until you're placed into this challenging situation, it's hard to describe to you how difficult it is to stay strong and keep our faith in the Lord's plans. But thankfully, we know that HE is FAITHFUL to us. And he is sustaining us. And that is all that matters. Thank you for all the messages & prayers. Keep them going & we'll keep you all updated!! :)
Holding on to this promise: "And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you." 1 Peter 5:10
One day at a time,
So, we were supposed to meet up with them for lunch or possibly dinner. We had not heard from her by 1:15pm, so we texted her, knowing that she is a night owl and likes to sleep in very late. We still have not heard from her. Honestly, it is making us frustrated, worried, concerned, and unsure. But we know in our hearts that the Lord is in control of this entire situation, and that worry on our part only shows that we need to have more faith in Him. That is very hard right now. Not hearing from her is so hard, because we want to call her and text her and talk to her .... but we don't want to be pushy or anything. So here we sit.
Well, I say we sit. I'm sitting now to write this blog post, but truthfully we've tried to keep busy today. We all went to Walmart (again!) and stocked up on more groceries :) (we are hungry people). We also had a small family meeting to determine how we can cut costs since we are going to be here longer than we initially anticipated. We decided to trade in the massive Suburban we had rented (thought we needed all that room for luggage, grandmommies, us, & Zane) for a smaller compact SUV (got a Jeep compass, tiny little thing!!), and will save about $500 a week on that. We also all moved in together into one (2-bedroom/3 bed) hotel room. That's going to be interesting :) We love our moms, but the hubby & I like our space and privacy. But decided this would be best in the grand scheme of things. We also drove down to the attorney's office and picked up the DVD that he was supposed to mail us a couple months ago. The DVD is of the baby's 3D ultrasound from July. We popped it into our laptop & watched him move and smile at us for about 30 minutes!! It was breathtaking, and while I'm glad we got to see his face again, and his little heartbeat, it also made the waiting that much harder!!!
We also drove down to Babies-R-Us and picked up a couple more things off the registry that we might need once we bring him back to the hotel, and once we fly back, like a Moby wrap - can't wait to try that thing out!!!! Lastly, we drove to the hospital just to be sure we knew where to go - it seems to be about a 15 minute drive from our hotel. We just ate dinner, and are going to see what the evening holds.
The waiting without hearing anything is killing us. We are trying to stay strong, and keeping our faith up for the most part, but each day that passes resounds with dollar signs. I told Justin that God will provide for those needs. But until you're placed into this challenging situation, it's hard to describe to you how difficult it is to stay strong and keep our faith in the Lord's plans. But thankfully, we know that HE is FAITHFUL to us. And he is sustaining us. And that is all that matters. Thank you for all the messages & prayers. Keep them going & we'll keep you all updated!! :)
Holding on to this promise: "And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you." 1 Peter 5:10
One day at a time,
Oh Tara... I can't even imagine the emotions you guys are feeling right now! You you have been in my prayers, and will continue to be ;) If there is ANYTHING I can do PLEASE let me know!!! I know God has brought you to this place for a reason, and something BEAUTIFUL is going to come from it :) Stay strong my friend and continue to lean on Him! XOXOXO
ReplyDeleteHere's a hug... catch it ;)
Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.
—James 1:2-4
My heart aches for you knowing how hard waiting is. I was very touched by your words and know that God will indeed see you through.
ReplyDeleteDeep breaths and hold tight.
Tara,
ReplyDeleteI agree with the above post--God HAS brought you and Justin to this place for a reason. As I told you once before, your faith is a shining beacon for all to see--including myself. Your journey has been long and frustrating yet you have remained faithful to God's word and promises. I will continue to pray for ALL of you--and can't wait till I see precious Zane in your arms.
I can't imagine how hard it must be to not hear from her. It makes the waiting more difficult and gives satan the foothold to put lies into your head.
ReplyDeletePraying that the Lord will sustain you through this time.
Love,
Christie